Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Swimming in my Own Head

So the past week or so, I've had that kind of "swimming in my own head" feeling. I remember feeling this way at the end of my pregnancies with Oliver and Meredith. Yet, even though I know it's coming, I'm kind of in the throws of it before I realize it. I feel like I'm watching the world pass me by and I don't know quite how to engage it. Doing my best as a mom, but feeling like I'm never quite handling things the right way...not to say that when I'm not pregnanct I feel like I always deal with things the right way.

It's a season. In four weeks (or less), we'll have a new baby girl and a new normal to adjust to. Oliver and Meredith are really excited about the baby. Yesterday Oliver told my mom that when the baby pops out of my tummy I will be able to hold him and carry him because my tummy won't be big anymore.

I guess life is all about seasons, and it's probably time for me to stop thinking life will or should be "normal," right? Always something new, different, and challenging. I guess that's good and stretching for this girl who has a hard time with change and likes to be in control:)


  1. i know the feeling! oh, i can't wait to meet your baby girl! and i'm secretly hoping she will have a head of dark hair like her mama :). would love to get together for a play date next week. want to come out to get your exersaucer? :)

  2. 4 short weeks! I'm already starting to get the itch for pregnancy to be over and I have 9 left! I love your new blog layout, where did you find it??