Sunday, March 15, 2009

Update on Grandma

I just talked to my Grandma, for what I feel may be the last time. I have wanted so badly to be there with her but the timing and flights have not worked out thus far. Tomorrow my dad and his brother meet with the hospital social worker to determine how to make the transition to hospice. She is incredibly weak, and the tests they ran before the weekend showed the cancer had spread everywhere, including to her lungs which are now filling with fluid.

I told her that I loved her and that I was so thankful for how she had loved me and my family so well. I told her that I am proud to be so much like her, and that I am thankful that she raised my dad to know God. I told her that I was sorry I wasn't there.

How do I sum up how much she means to me in a few minutes? How do I get the words out when all I can do is cry? Please pray for her and my family as she walks through this next phase...

One more thing. My mom has been singing hymns to her and talking to her about heaven. Today, my mom said, "Mom, after you get to heaven and make the rounds seeing everyone, will you look for my mom and give her a hug for me?" To which my grandma replied, "Of course I will, I always really liked her."


  1. Oh, darlin'...I'm so sorry you're going through this. I remember how much it hurt when we lost Grandma. I still miss her so much. I'll be praying that your Grandma passes into the hands of the Lord with joy and ease. That it will be just like breathing, and she'll be in the presence of her Creator, waiting there to see you again someday. I love you.

  2. Thanks, G. I appreciate your loving and comforting words. Love you back!

  3. Alli, I'm thinking of you and your family during this time. Praise God that you can grieve with hope. I know it's so hard though. Praying for you...